Live with one’s own will

When I receive a request or proposal from someone, I want to refuse in my heart, but I end up accepting it.

Especially when my heart and body are tired, I want to refuse.

But, I end up dealing with it while my heart is cloudy, and I get even more tired.

If I refuse a request or proposal from someone, how would they think of me?

“Would my evaluation and trustworthiness decrease?”

“Would the relationship we’ve built so far be destroyed?”

I become anxious and restless.

I think I am a person with a weak will, always caring about other people’s opinions and reactions.

Now, I am living being swayed by the words and actions of others, not my own will.

But from now on, I want to live with a strong will of my own.

The reason I thought so was because I was struck by a quote from Steve Jobs, the American businessman and founder of Apple.

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life.

Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking.

Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice.

And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.

They somehow already know what you truly want to become.

Everything else is secondary.

If I continue to live being swayed by the opinions and reactions of others, I am sure I will regret it when I reach the end of my life.

I am also in my 40s and have passed the halfway point of my life.

With the “courage to believe in my own heart and intuition” as Jobs said, I want to live the rest of my life.